A new start

Yesterday started my first day on my new journey to a healthy me. It was a good day and a not so good day. I was quite surprised by the actual lack of hunger that I had, but eating every couple hours definitely helped that. It was a tough day because I was so so tired. And by the end of the day I had a headache starting. I've cut my caffeine back which could be the reason for the headache, or perhaps it's from my body detoxing of unnecessary carbs. Either way the headache sucked. I woke up with it this morning also, but took some ibuprofen to kick it in the butt before it turned into something even worse. I planned out my meals for the day and then went to work. Work is a challenge in its own right. Working with food is tempting, but not as bad as I had thought at first. The frustrating part I am finding is not being able to taste the products I make. I know it's just a little thing, but I also know it can screw up the whole process. But I feel like I am only doing my job mediocre when I have to rely on others to taste things and tell me if they are ok, or right. But it's just another challenge I have to face. Today I am not feeling quite as tired, but I'm feeling more emotional. Perhaps even slightly depressed. I am missing my old comfort, and at the same time I am incredibly pissed that everything on tv seems to be about food. I am frustrated, that while my family is trying their best to be supportive, they also don't seem to quite get what I'm going through, and I am also sad that to some degree they don't care what they are putting in their body. I know parts of this are just selfishness, I have no right to judge what anyone does. I'm far from perfect, but it is also worry and concern for those close to me that by choosing to not care about what goes in their body, they are slowly killing themselves. I try not to think this way, but it is hard not to. Maybe I'm just jealous that they get to eat garlic bread and chili for dinner... who knows. In any instance, I am still excited and determined to continue this journey. I want to be healthy for my kids, and my husband. I want to have the energy to go to their sports games, or concerts, or whatever they may be involved in. I don't want to be tired all the time, and I don't want to think about food all day. I want to look and feel sexy! I want to do a cartwheel! I want to enjoy mother nature. I want to live! And that's why I'm doing this. I want to be alive and thrive like I never have before.