Starting Out

All my life I've been overweight. Never in my life do I even remember being under 200 lbs, although I don't imagine I came out of the womb that big. I have tried a few things to control my weight but despite most of them, I am still obese. I have a food addiction. I know this and I have known this for a long time. I don't like exercise. This probably has more to do with the fact that when you are obese, it's a bitch to move around. Your body screams at you and your mind just keeps saying "give up cow, why do you even try?" This is how I have lived most of my life. With a lot of body issues, and a lot of excuses, and a lot of self doubt. But, I have decided to make a change. A big change. A HUGE change. I'm taking my life in my hands and I'm making myself better. I need support. And I want to share my journey and hopefully inspire others as I go. I've come across a program that I have seen first hand work for others. Is this my miracle? It can be, if I make it so. I know it is up to me to be successful, and now I am going to "Take Shape for Life" and start living. Never have I felt so confident about something and so scared at the same time. And scared for perhaps some very odd reasons. Of course I am afraid of failure, but can you believe I am scared of being thin and healthy. As I said before I have always been overweight, and the idea of not being that is both exhilarating and scary as hell. So this is where it starts. Change. A healthier self. A long happy life with my beautiful family.