Feeling Good!

I wanted to post today because I am feeling so so good and there are some things that I want to share that I think, most people might not even realize are significant in my journey.  I am excited because I feel healthy.  I don't remember ever feeling this healthy.  One major change that I have noticed that is amazing, is before I started this program, I would get upset stomachs almost daily.  I would have bowel issues just about as often.  I know this isn't something most people want to hear about, but this is one of the most important changes I have noticed in my body and feeling healthier.  I have not had an upset stomach, or diarreah since I started take shape for life.  I cannot express to you how amazing this feels.  I guess you maybe don't realize how miserable you are until you aren't anymore.
There have been other significant things that have changed in my life that are amazing also.  For example, I can easily put socks on my feet now.  Sounds silly but before, I couldn't lift my foot up on my leg to get socks on and bending over to do it was almost as much of a pain.  Now I can fairly easily lift my foot onto my leg.  I can also sit in the chair, on the couch, on the floor, where ever, in an indian style leg cross.  Or like Meditation leg cross.  Again, this might seem silly and insignificant to most people, but to be able to move my body like this again is so wonderful.  I can sleep in my bed with little pain, I can bend, squat, MOVE do just about anything without pain (or to much pain, sometimes standing in one place doing something for an extended period hurts my back quite a bit.)  It's an amazing feeling, and It is even more amazing to know that as I get thinner, I will be even more flexible, and in less pain.  I can't wait to do some sports.  You can bet that Next spring I am going to be looking into softball!  I haven't played in years, but I am so anxious to put myself out there and play again.  I was good!  I was actually good at a lot of sports I attempted in highschool and middle school gym classes, but I've always been the fat kid, and between getting made fun of, and kids yelling "Earthquake" as I ran across the floor, and being easily winded and worn out, I never pushed myself in any of these activities.  But now, Thats going to change.  I want to play tennis!  I want to be on a bowling league again and go to nationals again.  I want to coach my children in sports, or at least be there for them.  I want to do all this stuff, and for the first time in my life, I feel confident that I can do all of this.  And not only that I can do this, but that I WILL do this.  It's what I want, and dammit, I am going to do it!
Some other amazing things that have happen in the last couple weeks.  This morning I was in my shower, shaving my legs, and I was amazed that NOTHING hurt when I did this.  I took my time, and still nothing hurt!  I even proceeded to scrub all the dried dead skin off my now cute little feet, that I couldn't reach at 320 lbs, because I could reach them so easily and painlessly today!  I bought a couple pairs of pants yesterday that FIT, which also makes me feel amazing.  Wearing my old clothes is hard because then I just feel frumpy, but having a couple things that fit, is  amazing.  I don't smother my husband anymore when we are being intimate, and I feel sexy!  Everything is falling into place and I couldn't be happier.  My control issues that I have had for a long time are even getting better!  I believe this is because for so long I have felt so out of control over myself, that I have felt I need to control everything else around me.  And not always rationally.  But now that I have control of my health, things are just better!  Everybody is happier in my house, but especially this momma!  All of this, and I am only down just over 20 lbs!  I gotta tell ya, my future is going to be amazing!!!!  Stay tuned Friday for my one month picture and to see how much I've lost this week.  And as always, thanks for reading my blog!