6 weeks in

Well, It has been six weeks since starting my weightloss journey.  I am still losing, but only three pounds this week.  But that puts me at 280 pounds!  And I am down a total of 34 pounds.  This week has been the worst week I have had so far.  It has been a struggle to not give up and give in this week.  I'm sure part of it has to do with stress, but part of it still feels like I am "breaking up" with a friend I love so dearly.  I know the meal replacement part of the program is temporary, and that eventually I will be introducing normal (Healthy) foods back into my life, but for some reason, I am feeling the loss hard core this week.  I mean HARD CORE!  I knew this journey would not be easy, it is just hard finding the strength when I am in the mindset that I have been in the last couple days.  There are two things that I think will actually help me personally, quite a bit.  The first is a conference, that I will be attending tomorrow, and I am sure that it will light a fire and make me feel all sorts of passionate about what I am doing, again.  The second thing (And I doubt this is recommended, or that it is nessecarily something that most people could handle) I am taking a day off.  I have to.  If I don't, I will quit.  I know myself better than anyone, and I know this about myself.  So today I am eating just regular food.  No meal replacements.  Don't get me wrong, I am not going to go out and eat fast food and crap all day.  I don't even have a desire to do that!  And I am fully aware that by doing this, I will likely kick my body right out of "fat burn" and when I restart the meal replacements it'll be kind of like starting over.  However, I feel like if I do kick myself out of fat burn, it'll help me realize how much I hate being out of it.  I know it sounds silly to talk about it.  I understand what my body is doing, and why I feel so great, and the reasons I feel so great, just I like I know I will probably not feel so energetic and good today and probably for the next couple days.  But, I think I need that reminder.  I have noticed something interesting already though, my appetite is very different from what it was before.  I feel full much quicker, and even though I am eating just regular food today, I am eating small portions and throughout the day, just like on the program.  I'm actually quite impressed by how my body and stomach are already telling me to slow down and not eat as much.  It gives me a lot of hope for when I am done with the weightloss portion of the program.  So with all this said, I hope I haven't disappointed anyone, especially my health coach Jenn.  And I hope that people understand why I am taking a break today.  Yes, I feel guilty.  But I also know I need to do this, in order to move forward.